Why choose to left without words?

For a second,
I thought you are joking with me because you always do.
I never wanted to accept the fact that you left without telling,
even it is not me but not anyone,
just your family.
I feel so sad...
The moment I knew it was real,
tears suddenly burst out from my eyes, and it can't stop,
no matter how hard I try to wipe off it still came out,
I can't control.

We used to make a tons of promises..
Going to the same college,
Having funs til we 18th,
Have a trip to Korea,
and then another 10 years we go Japan,
And recently we just said we have to go to have some fun before you head to US.
You promise and you said you were exciting,
But why? Why you did this to me?

I know I always set pranks on you,
Is this how you did your revenge?
If it is you have made it..
I used to told you that I never see you since we get our results,
and you don't gimme that fucking chance and then you're gone!

Do you know how much I miss you?
Don't tell me you do!
Cause if you do, you won't do this to me..
How I wish I can fly to US now and give you a hard slap on your face,
You know what?
You are so cruel! </3

The only one...:(

Well...
Finally my college life start,
and I'm abit dissapointed...:(
because things doesn't turn in the way that I think,
I'm the only girl in my class.

I feel lonely everyday when I walk into the classroom,
its just me,
no one is sitting next to me,
and I don't have gossip partner...
The worst is....
There are few NERDS in my class..>"<
Both of them are like crazy scientist with full of white hair,
and two is from other country (International Student)
Those nerd is acting way so weird..
And I couldn't stand for that...
The way they talk and staring people makes me feel uncomfortable...

Someone told me that for the 1st week normally is like that,
because most of the students haven't got to enrol,
but I guess there is just me te only girl who will take IT course...
and I feel so upset,

I need FRIENDS,
I mean I've alrd leave home and stay in here,
at least I need friends,
but I din't have....:(
Every morning when I sit in the cafetaria and have my breakfast,
I always see people sitting in gang laugh and joke all the way,
but I was just alone sitting at there and having my silent breakfast...
I walk alone to classroom,
I eat alone in cafetaria,
I laugh alone when lecturers talk something funny,
I sit alone in class,
What I do is always ALONE!!!!
I'm just fucking angry about that!!!
GOD Please HELP ME!

Honey, I'm leaving town.

Finally its TODAY!
I've been waited for so long for today,
after all these HIGH SCHOOL LIFE and EXAMS.. :(
I love to say that,
"I'M leavin town!"
"Leavin to JAPAN!"
Its going to be a christmas trip full with snow and fresh air!!
Aiming: EAT all the way, SHOOT all the way! <3

I got a good feeling to travel at the last week of the holiday,
People usually spend their last week holiday at home,
I mean part of them..=p
but I'm going to spend it at JAPAN.
Its really sounds good,
more than good!

But I'm goin to feel sad after this trip,
everything is gonna change when I came back,
everything will be new for me..
The only thing I can do,
its just try my best to fit in...

I'm gonna miss all of you guys,
especially 38 po...=p
We used to laugh and joke togother..:(
When are we going to do this again?
We are not going to be stranger dont we?

BTW,
Merry Christmas to all my friends and family~
I hope you all happy and healthy always.
I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3 >"<

"Though miles may lie between us
  we are never far apart,
  for friendship doesn't count miles,
  its measured by HEART. "

Its time to say "GOODBYE"

Finally it cames to the END,
and I guess we are not goin to see each other often....
I hate to say this, but I have too,
"I started to miss my HIGH SCHOOL!"

I know things and peoples always "Come and goes" in life,
but there is always things and peoples that we miss alot....
2010 finally is goin to the end,
and I know theres alots of things I need to say "GOODBYE" to,
Goodbye to my high school,
Goodbye to my uniforms,
Goodbye to my school shoe,
Goodbye to my teachers,
Goodbye to my homeworks,
Goodbye to my school bag,
and to all the things and people who related to my high school life.....

But I hate to say "Goodbye" to my friends....
I started to miss them...
I feel like going back to the 1st day we went to Sunway...T.T
We were laughing and joking all the time and days,
eventhought we don't have taking pictures,
but all the happy moments is like a movie playing in my mind....

Gab said that in life we don't remember 'DAYS" but we remember "MOMENTS"
And I agree for that!

I believe in 2011,
its a year that everything start in new,
NEW LIFE,
NEW FRIENDS,
NEW COLLEGE,
But I'm not goin to forget all this things that happened in high school,
It is still clear....

And I believe one day,
we will say HI to each other again!
And that day is coming really SOON....
I HOPE!