Why choose to left without words?

For a second,
I thought you are joking with me because you always do.
I never wanted to accept the fact that you left without telling,
even it is not me but not anyone,
just your family.
I feel so sad...
The moment I knew it was real,
tears suddenly burst out from my eyes, and it can't stop,
no matter how hard I try to wipe off it still came out,
I can't control.

We used to make a tons of promises..
Going to the same college,
Having funs til we 18th,
Have a trip to Korea,
and then another 10 years we go Japan,
And recently we just said we have to go to have some fun before you head to US.
You promise and you said you were exciting,
But why? Why you did this to me?

I know I always set pranks on you,
Is this how you did your revenge?
If it is you have made it..
I used to told you that I never see you since we get our results,
and you don't gimme that fucking chance and then you're gone!

Do you know how much I miss you?
Don't tell me you do!
Cause if you do, you won't do this to me..
How I wish I can fly to US now and give you a hard slap on your face,
You know what?
You are so cruel! </3

The only one...:(

Well...
Finally my college life start,
and I'm abit dissapointed...:(
because things doesn't turn in the way that I think,
I'm the only girl in my class.

I feel lonely everyday when I walk into the classroom,
its just me,
no one is sitting next to me,
and I don't have gossip partner...
The worst is....
There are few NERDS in my class..>"<
Both of them are like crazy scientist with full of white hair,
and two is from other country (International Student)
Those nerd is acting way so weird..
And I couldn't stand for that...
The way they talk and staring people makes me feel uncomfortable...

Someone told me that for the 1st week normally is like that,
because most of the students haven't got to enrol,
but I guess there is just me te only girl who will take IT course...
and I feel so upset,

I need FRIENDS,
I mean I've alrd leave home and stay in here,
at least I need friends,
but I din't have....:(
Every morning when I sit in the cafetaria and have my breakfast,
I always see people sitting in gang laugh and joke all the way,
but I was just alone sitting at there and having my silent breakfast...
I walk alone to classroom,
I eat alone in cafetaria,
I laugh alone when lecturers talk something funny,
I sit alone in class,
What I do is always ALONE!!!!
I'm just fucking angry about that!!!
GOD Please HELP ME!